There it was sitting on my counter in a pile of recycling. I didn’t see it when I took it out of the mailbox on thursday? friday? I just threw it all in a pile and went on my way. Last night when I was making dinner I looked through that pile and was shocked to find the letter from MOFGA (Maine organic farmers and Growers Asssociation). I immediately ripped it open, not even stopping to think about it and read “We are happy to offer you a space at this year’s Fair”. OK, so if you read my post from yesterday you would know that I was grappling with potential rejection. Liz had gotten her letter of acceptance and I hadn’t heard anything and was trying to come to terms with what to do next. I guess that’s something we all have to deal with when we put our work out there. It makes us ask some hard questions of ourselves, like am I doing the right thing, in the right way….I guess it comes down to trusting our own instincts and doing it for the love of doing it. I wasted alot of energy not trusting and I can laugh about it now, but seriously what if I hadn’t gotten in? How would that have affected me? Why does it change how we value ourselves? Outside validation is a messy animal. I was prepared to march on and continue working in this method that I love, but I did stop and question it. The one thing that this whole situation has made clear to me is that I am working very differently than I ever have and that I can work this way in many venues. I think I’ve been limiting myself with a “functional” ceramic outlook when it comes to fairs, but really, as Liz said “You show up at the CG Fair with your work, no matter what that work is. Be an artist”. That’s true for any fair, show, exhibition, and life. Well, thanks Liz for such good advice and for laughing at me (with me) while we walk this road. We’ve got to get into our studios because that fair will be here before we know it! Sept 23,24,25th in Unity, Maine.